This layout is about the story that I just told…the journaling is hidden behind the white paper on the green pull-out tab. God has blessed me with such an amazing, godly husband and a wonderful family. All things I would have missed out on had I not finally trusted Him.
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.
This is one of God’s awesome promises to us. But, I think that sometimes we tend to focus on the promise part of the verse, and ignore the condition part. The condition is to “delight yourself in the Lord.” What exactly does that mean? For me, it means searching after His will in my life and joyfully following that, come what may. It doesn’t mean doing what I think is best for myself. It means trusting in Him and following His plans for me.
About 7 years ago now, I really learned the meaning of this. I was in a bad relationship. My boyfriend at the time was emotionally and verbally abusive to me. He was very controlling, and a few times even leaned toward being physically abusive. But, things had progressed so far into that abyss that I was completely dependent on the relationship. He had separated me from family and friends to the point that in my mind, he was the only person in this world who cared about me. And, even though I knew that God was pushing me to do it, I just couldn’t get out.
Then, one night I was reading my Bible in my quiet time and came across a very familiar verse, But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Matthew 6:33. This day, the verse hit me like never before. I was in a relationship that I KNEW was not in God’s will for me. I wasn’t seeking His kingdom and His righteousness. I was doubting that He knew what was best for me. I was trying to hang on to something that I could get for myself, thinking it was all I deserved, thinking it was the best I could get. I was seeking what I thought I wanted.
It was at this moment that I realized, once and for all, that I had to get out of that situation, no matter how hard it might seem…and lean on GOD instead. I thank God for revealing that to me that night, and for saving me from so many things.
And, I just want to remind all of you as well…if you delight in Him, He will give you the desires of your heart. I think there is a catch though. He knows us intimately. He created us and knows us even better than we know ourselves. He can see the bigger picture where we can only see what we want right now. He knows what we need and he knows what will make us happy and fulfilled. Even though sometimes we can’t see it. That’s why we have to trust him, no matter what, because our eyes and plans can be swayed by Satan’s deceptions and by our own flesh and desires. But God’s plans are not swayed. He has a perfect plan for us, and I fully believe with everything in me that the ONLY way to be truly joyful, content, and fulfilled is to be living God’s will for your life. Otherwise, there will always be something missing.
Is there anything in your life that you need to let go of? Is there anything that God is leading you to that seems scary? Take the plunge. He knows what is ahead even when we don’t.