Last week, our weightloss Wednesday prompt was about goals, and I wrote about how my main goal is to prove myself faithful to my Savior. With that being my motivation, I do have some more specific goals as well:
To conquer eating disorder.
My God is amazing. When He gave me the word back in January that He was going to deliver me from depression, anxiety, and eating disorder, my mind couldn’t even really comprehend it. It seemed so far from where I was that it wouldn’t even be possible. For years, I have struggled and it seemed almost too good to be true to think that I could ever have a normal relationship with food. But, that is my goal and I can see myself getting closer to it, even now only 2 months into the process.
A healthier lifestyle.
I don’t eat diet foods, and I don’t starve myself to lose weight. Why? Because I am trying to commit to a healthier lifestyle. I’m not on a diet. I am beginning a healthier lifestyle. There is no ending date or weight. It is who I am committing myself to be. There are many reasons for me to want to lose weight and many of them are health related.
To be in better physical shape.
I have decided that I want to be a runner. Really crazy, because I do not workout, I do not run. Working out is a chore that I dread. But, somehow, for this new me, that is not the case. I actually look forward to working out everyday. I’m still a little amazed by it myself. The old me looked for every excuse possible not to workout. The new me has ignored many obstacles and kept at it. I kinda like the new me.
And, that brings me to a specific goal that I have: to run a 5K. I’ve been walking/jogging a total of 2-3 miles. The track is 1/4 mile, and I’ll usually walk 2-3 laps and run 1, walk 2-3 laps and run 1, etc. Last night, I ran for 2 straight laps. I ran for 1/2 mile straight. I was ecstatic. It’s nice to be able to see some progress. My cousin said he’d like to run a marathon or half marathon with me, and I didn’t even tell him he was crazy. I said, “I would love to be able to do that one day.” And, maybe I could? Who knows. I feel like I have already done so much that I never thought I would be able to do, why not dream big?
So, I’m going to add my running goals as well.
Now for the numbers:
Heaviest Weight: 201.8 (I am 5’6″, so this put me in the category of being medically OBESE)
Current Weight: 182.8 (down 19 lbs!)
Next Milestone: 170
Final Goal: 135 (Healthy weight for my height is 115-145)