When You Feel Unworthy


Throne of Grace

 

Today started out in defeat. I guess it really started before that, with a few nights of little sleep. And then yesterday. The day started off wonderfully, with a 2.5 mile walk with my new friend Michelle, and we prayed for peace in our homes. We prayed for our husbands to be the leaders that God has called them to be and for us to be the wives that he has called us to be.

Then the day happened, culminating in an argument with my husband last night. A big one, over nothing. There was frustration and raised voices. Well, let’s just call it what it is–there was yelling on both sides.

And so I awoke this morning feeling defeated.  Because how could I let that happen? I was walking alone this morning, so I decided to pray while I walked.

Except I couldn’t.  I pray and I plan and I plan and I pray, yet my failures and hang ups remain.  And I thought, how can I come to God with this same problem, confessing the very same sins yet again.  And the only words that would come to my lips were “God, I am not worthy to even come before you when I keep failing at the same things over and over. I’m not even worthy to talk  to you.”

And immediately, God in His sweet mercy brought the above verse to my mind…Let us come boldly before the throne of grace. (Hebrews 4:16)

The truth is, I am unworthy. The Bible makes that abundantly clear, but in Romans 3:10, we’re told specifically that there is no one who is righteous. We are not worthy to be in the presence of God, or to fellowship with Him

And we have an accuser. Satan would love for you to give up and stop trying. He would love for you to allow the weight of your sin and condemnation to drive you away from the Father.

But we can’t let that happen.  And we don’t have to, because we also have a redeemer. We have a mediator, who intercedes and advocates so that we can have the privilege of talking to God. I don’t have to bear the weight of my sin. That’s not to say that we shouldn’t try, because we should. God’s word calls us to holiness and sanctification. But when we fail, God’s word says that there is mercy:

For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need.
-Hebrews 15-16

I pray that you would let His grace and mercy wash over you today, driving out the condemnation  that the enemy heaps upon you, and entering into His presence, boldly.

Do you ever feel condemnation rising up in your spirit? How do you overcome it?

 

Comments

  1. says

    First, take a deep breath. Then realize that God loves you, He wants the BEST for you, and He promises us “the big picture” with HIM!

    I knew I was on the right track when I realized that for a long time I could not take a complete, relaxed, breath. It happened gradually, but now I CAN take a deep breath. And that reminds me, every time, that God is there for me, even when (like always) I don’t deserve Him!

  2. Tammy K. says

    How true, there are those days when we feel we are not worthy to come before the throne and spew out our human-ness. And then the reality hits…that’s exactly when we need to come to the throne. Jesus understands. Jesus loves us–even in our ugly human-ness. And with that we can know that HE is the one to change our hearts and our thinking.

    Great post, Crystal!

  3. says

    Crystal, I can’t tell you how much I needed to hear this! It’s frustrating just how hard it is to accept His mercy and forgiveness, and just how easy it is to absorb condemnation and guilt. Yes, we sin and we are guilty. But, because of the shed blood of Jesus, when we sincerely repent, we’re forgiven! It’s really a slap in the face to Jesus when we don’t accept His mercy and forgiveness… Yes, I need to remember that!
    Blessings and love ~ Mary

  4. says

    Yes, thank you Lord for grace! :) We’re studying Hebrews in the ladies’ bible study I attend and one thought that stuck out to me in Hebrews 7 is that Jesus is our eternal intercessor. He sits at the right hand of the Father continually interceding on our behalf. To me that means that not only did he choose me at the cross, but he chooses me over and over again. I may grow weary of being a wife, a mother, even a Christian, but He never grows weary of being my Savior!

    • Crystal says

      Yes!!! My husband and I are reading through Hebrews right now in our nightly reading, and I am LOVING it! Each night I have been posting my favorite verse from the chapter to facebook, and that was the verse I shared from Hebrews 7! I loved it :) Thanks for sharing!

  5. apronstringsotherthings says

    What an encouraging post :) It’s true, on our own we are unworth – so thankful for the cleansing blood of Christ.

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