There is this neat little feature on my blog that shows me a general list of search terms that lead people to my site. Sometimes it can be beneficial for me to see what things are bringing people to my site, and sometimes it can be a little silly (like How to Ruin a Perfect Marriage). But sometimes, it’s a little heartbreaking. Today, the question that led someone to my blog was this:
What if I’m unworthy of God?
I have no idea who typed those desperate words into a search engine.
Maybe it was a man who’s been dependent on alcohol for far too long. Or a woman whose drug addiction holds her in a vice-like grip. Maybe it’s the teenage girl who is carrying an unwanted baby in her belly, or a young woman who carries the weight of guilt and pain from an abortion. Maybe it was the mother or father whose addiction has led them to forsake everything, even the care of their own children.
Maybe it was the man who has cheated on his wife. Or the man who’s wife left him, and he wonders if he will ever be worthy of anyone. Maybe it was a man or woman addicted to pornography. Maybe it was a homosexual who has heard too many Christians tell them their fate.
Maybe it was the woman suffering from depression who battles a self-loathing. Or maybe it was someone with a disability or chronic illness who just feels like he or she just doesn’t have anything to offer. Maybe it was a teenager who has already made such a mess of his life that he wonders if he could ever find redemption. Maybe it was a murderer.
Maybe it was a mom who fights those feelings of inadequacy every single day, and she knows she’s not the mom she should be. Maybe she’s unworthy of God?
Maybe it was the man or woman who has been called into ministry of some sort and they don’t understand it because they aren’t the best or brightest and how could God possibly use them?
Or maybe it was just your average, beautifully-dressed church goer who was suffering from a moment of fleeting doubt.
Can I tell you a secret? It doesn’t matter which of these people posed the question. The answer is the same.
There is no “what if” about it. You are unworthy of God. I am unworthy of God. Billy Graham is unworthy of God.
For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. (Romans 3:23)
Not one of us is worthy of God. But the good news is, we don’t have to be. “God demonstrates His love for us in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8).
Christ died for us, while we were sinners. God has an unconditional love for you today, regardless of your failures and shortcomings and mistakes. He loves you so much that Christ died for you. That may not be new information for you, but let it sink into your spirit.
This doesn’t mean we shouldn’t strive for holiness. It just means that we are free of the burden to be “good enough”. We can’t be. But it’s okay, because we don’t have to be.
Lord, thank you so much that your mercies are new every morning. And that your grace covers all my sins. And that my salvation and acceptance into your kingdom is not dependent upon my worthiness. Because I could never be enough. But YOU, Lord are enough. Thank you. Amen.